Last night while Baylin was eating he was asking for a cup. He knows that he can get a cup when he is done because he makes a mess and throws it. So I told him when he was done he could have one. I am sitting on the floor playing with Gunner while Baylin ate and I hear, "done... want cup" so I put Gunner down and start to clean up Baylin.
You saw that right? I put Gunner down... you know what that means lately. So I have Baylin whining because I am cleaning him up and he does not want me to (this is a new thing for him) I have Josie under my feet trying to get every little crumb from under and around Baylin, growling at me because she thinks I am stealing it from her, and Jack is barking at me because I am not sharing with him like I was "sharing" with Josie. It is enough to make a momma go nuts!
So quick-like-a-bunny I clean everything up and put the high chair away, swoop down and pick up the now red-faced screaming child and sit on the couch with him.
Silence....aaaahhhhhhh...until I look up. My little boy was just standing there right where I left him and had the biggest frown and alligator tears I have EVER seen on his face. Momma picked up the baby and forgot about my cup! OH MY GOSH!!!!! I told him I would get it... but it was too late. He ran into his dark room and hid in the corner to cry. I practically threw Gunner at Brady who just came out of the bathroom and ran after Baylin. I apologized, gave him a huge hug, and carried him into the kitchen to get his cup. I filled it with Koolaid.
I gave him soo many kisses, hugs, and told him I loved him. He just did not seem to care. I broke his heart and I feel really really bad about it.
I am a terrible mommy, my kid told me so.
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I am sure you are forgiven and all is well. If that is the worst mistake you make as a mommy you will be way better than I was. I just picked an ice cream bucket of red and orange cherry tomatoes. Wish I could share with you. Love you guys.
OK. So I must tell you my worst mommy moment. Hopefully, it will make yours seem a little smaller. When C was about Baylin's age, I accidently slammed his fingers in the back door of the van. He still has one bent finger, but I think he does not connect the two. (at least until now, when he reads this confession) Baylin will forget, and you will go on to bigger and better mistakes.
I remember that!!! You had to get ice from the liquor store to put on his finger.
He seems to be doing just fine today, so you are right. I was still really sad this morning though.
Awww...don't be so hard on yourself. I know it's so sad. We've all done it.
Okay, so when I was in grad school, I would leave SR at the apt and call her when it was time for her to leave for school. One day at about 11:30 AM, I saw my number on the caller ID on my office phone. I told my officemate that was weird and that there better not be anyone at my apt. So, I dialed the apt to check - SR had been waiting all that time for her call to leave for school. She was probably 10 at the time, and I don't think she remembers. I will never forget...and I am constantly afraid that I will do something like that again. Being a Mommy is difficult - and I only had one at a time!!!!!
thanks everyone! i am feeling a little better now.
love to you all!
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